Alexey and Mikhail by Jay
Chapter 7
Swimming with Walruses
Winter comes early to
On the day when a fresh fall of snow made the palaces and
churches look magical, and muffled the everyday sounds of the city, rehearsals
finished early for the dancers. Alexey
suggested that the two of them do the household shopping but relented when his
brat begged to be allowed to go out in the snow with
When Mikhail had first moved in to Alexey’s apartment he had regarded food shopping as a boring chore and had accompanied his partner unwillingly. There had even been one shameful scene in a supermarket which had necessitated a rapid curtailment of the shopping trip and a return to the apartment. The ensuing discussion about responsibilities within the relationship had ended very painfully for Mikhail.
But recently Mikhail had begun to take an interest in
cooking and had become much more cooperative about the weekly shopping
expedition. He had started to enjoy
discussing menus, selecting ingredients and taking his share in the running of their
home. However, Alexey knew how much Mikhail
loved to be out in the fresh snow and he contented himself by reminding his
partner to wrap up warmly before going outside with
“I’m happy to do the shopping, Misha. Where are you going to go?”
“We haven’t got any definite plans but we may finish up back
at
“When will you be home?”
“I’m not sure. Don’t cook for me this evening. You know what it’s like when Vladimir and I get on the computer. I might be late back.”
“Okay, love. I’ll have something you can heat up when you come in if you want. Ring me if you’re going to be really late.”
Alexey went off with his shopping list, glad that Mikhail
was planning an enjoyable afternoon with
Mikhail and Vladimir headed toward Nevsky Prospekt where
teams of street cleaners, both male and female, were efficiently shovelling the
snow into piles at the sides of the pavement, making a clear passageway along
this major thoroughfare in the city. There
were plenty of shop windows to look at and they warmed themselves in the well
heated stores, admiring clothes, shoes and electronic equipment. Mikhail felt a little guilty that he had
avoided going to the supermarket with Alexey and was now visiting the shops
with
Eventually they decided to head back to
This was a popular spot with the inhabitants of
Mikhail watched in wonder as one old lady in a sagging black
swimming costume slowly lowered her body into the dark and uninviting waters of
the
“Watch this, Volodya,” he shouted.
“Stop it. You can’t go in there.”
Mikhail had kicked off his boots, had pulled his jumper and tee
shirt over his head in a single movement, and was taking off his trousers.
Mikhail surfaced struggling to breathe. The shock of hitting the freezing water seemed to have expelled all the air from his lungs. His body was so intensely cold it felt as though his skin was burning and yet he had the impression of floating effortlessly before his vision closed in and everything went black.
The spectators on the bank saw Mikhail lose consciousness and his body fall forward to float face downward in the water. One of the old men who had been drying himself after his dip immediately plunged back into the river and grabbed Mikhail, hauling him to the edge where the walruses helped get him back onto the paved riverbank. A reflex cough expelled the water which had entered his airway and his rescuers turned him onto his side to aid recovery.
There was no question of drying Mikhail and getting him
dressed. The priority was to check that
he was breathing and to cover his body with as many warm clothes as
possible. The onlookers generously
stripped off their coats and covered him where he lay, while one of them
telephoned for an ambulance.
By the time they had waited in a grubby and draughty corridor, with Mikhail still on a trolley, while others queued ahead of them for cardiography, they had been in the hospital for several hours. When the doctor finally came to see them with the result of the test it was late evening. Mikhail was relieved to be told that his ECG was normal. The doctor explained that the plunge into freezing water would have caused his blood vessels to contract, briefly cutting off the blood supply to the brain, resulting in the loss of consciousness.
“It’s not an uncommon reaction,” he explained. “The human body can’t take such rapid changes in temperature. The walruses build up to it gradually and they are taking a dip every day. Your body wasn’t ready for it, although in every other way you seem to be a very fit young man. You were lucky today. You could have died in that river!”
With that Mikhail was told he could get dressed and go home. His boxers were still not fit to wear so he had to go commando but he pulled on all his other clothes gratefully and as soon as he was outside the hospital he telephoned Alexey and conveyed the brief message that he was on his way home. Alexey did express concern about the lateness of the hour but Mikhail reassured him by saying he was getting a taxi.
As they waited for a taxi to arrive, Mikhail realised that the
decision not to tell Alexey about the events of the day seemed to have been
taken. He didn’t recall consciously
planning to keep the facts from his top.
Somehow the conversation had just turned out that way and he was too
tired to correct the impression he had given.
But on reflection, he began to feel it would be for the best if Alexey
never found out and he resolved to say that he had spent the evening at
“Please, Volodya. I don’t want Alexey to know about this. It would only worry him and everything turned out alright in the end, didn’t it.”
“I won’t say a word if you don’t want me to, Misha. But I don’t know about everything having turned out alright. Can you imagine what it felt like to see your body dragged out of that river? I thought you were dead!”
“I’m sorry, Volodya. I shouldn’t have put you through that. I act like a total idiot sometimes. Just, please, don’t tell anyone.”
“Of course not. I promise. If that’s what you want.”
Mikhail was certain he could trust his friend and thanked him very sincerely when he was dropped off outside the apartment. Then he climbed the dark, stone staircase to the third floor, trying to compose himself before greeting his partner. As soon as Mikhail opened the front door, Alexey took in his white, haggard face but accepted the explanation that he had spent too long staring at the computer screen and had a headache. Mikhail escaped into the kitchen and heated up some of the food Alexey had kept for him before avoiding any further questions by taking a shower to get rid of the lingering smell of the river water, putting all his clothes in the laundry basket and going to bed early.
By the morning he was feeling much better, as a night’s sleep had dispelled the lingering side effects of his loss of consciousness. He found time to give a little more thought to the ill considered decision not to tell Alexey about his exploit of the previous day. Mikhail tended to act on impulse and not give too much thought to motives and consequences. On this occasion, however, he did question his own motives. In fact, he found himself conducting a silent question and answer session with himself.
‘What would Alesha do if he knew about this?’ he mused.
And the answer was unequivocal. ‘He would give me a spanking.’
‘So am I dodging punishment?’
‘Well yes, I suppose so. But that’s not the reason for keeping quiet.’
‘Really?’
‘Yes, really! There is no need to upset Alesha over this. He would be frightened when there is no need for him to worry. This is nothing to do with him. It’s not about our relationship, not about our agreement, not about our life together. It isn’t covered by our rules.’
‘So why would he be spanking you?’
‘Okay. So I was a careless....thoughtless even. Alright! I didn’t think of the consequences of my actions and he has a real thing about that. But nothing happened! I’m alright. I don’t need to worry him. He doesn’t need to know about this.’
‘Are you sure?’
‘YES.’
The last was said very firmly and Mikhail then embarked on frantic displacement activity in order to shut up the dissenting voice in his head. He had long since perfected the art of distracting himself from what he did not want to hear.
It was some weeks before there was another heavy snowfall in
After breakfast they each put on boots, gloves, hat and padded
jacket while Mikhail bounced about in his eagerness to get out before cars and
people started to spoil the perfection of the morning. They needed no discussion about the direction
of their walk. They set off towards of
the river, passing the Admiralty, with the sun glinting on its golden spire and
the snow piled high on all the ledges of its yellow façade. From there they continued towards the
Crossing the
Alexey watched appreciatively as his handsome partner bent gracefully to put his shoulder behind the growing weight of snow, his trousers stretching tightly across the perfect curve of his buttocks. Alexey bent to fashion a snowball of his own which he threw hard and with perfect accuracy. It thudded into Mikhail’s backside leaving a fair amount of snow sticking to the fabric of his trousers and starting to soak through to his underwear. He reared upright with a yell of outrage and began immediately to create the ammunition for retaliation. By the time their fight was over both men had a fair amount of snow down their necks and their fingers were freezing in soaking wet gloves. But they were warm with chasing one another and laughing with the exhilaration of their childish activity.
They turned to make their way home, this time walking round the outside of the Peter and Paul Fortress where Mikhail was surprised to be addressed by one of the walruses.
“Hello. How are you feeling, lad? You had a close call the other week.”
Mikhail froze. If he responded to this greeting then Alexey would soon realise what must have happened. He briefly considered feigning ignorance. His confusion must have shown on his face but it was misinterpreted by the elderly man.
“Oh, you won’t remember me. Of course you won’t. You were unconscious at the time. But I was the one that pulled you out of the river.”
This man had saved his life. There was only one possible response and Mikhail made it, knowing as he did so that he was condemning himself even as he spoke his words of profound thanks.
Alexey was briefly baffled by the exchange but he was nothing if not quick witted. Mikhail did not need to even look in his direction to know that Alexey was soon assimilating the full implications of the conversation. Mikhail fancied he could feel the waves of anger emanating from his top as the old man went on to ask how long Mikhail had spent in hospital. By the time Mikhail managed to get away from his rescuer, Alexey had heard pretty much the whole story.
They continued walking home in silence. When Mikhail was sure they were out of sight of any observers he timidly slipped his cold hand into Alexey’s. It was grasped in Alexey’s warmer one and gripped very tightly for a few moments in an unspoken message of relief and thanksgiving that Mikhail had not disappeared beneath those dark, swirling waters.
When they got back to the apartment they went wordlessly to change into warm, dry clothes and then Alexey instructed Mikhail to go and stand in his usual corner in the entrance hall. Mikhail raised troubled grey eyes to his partner’s stern, brown ones not understanding why this was being asked of him. He wasn’t angry, he hadn’t staged a tantrum, he wasn’t refusing to talk: all the usual antecedents to a period of corner time. He was quiet and subdued, more than ready to talk and fully expecting to be punished.
Alexey had no trouble understanding Mikhail’s unspoken question and he took a moment to explain the departure from their usual routine. “I’m the one that needs some time just now, Misha. I’m so angry and upset I can’t deal with you straight away. I want you to spend the time while you’re waiting giving some thought to how I feel now, knowing,” and here his voice cracked, “knowing that I nearly lost you and you didn’t tell me.”
Mikhail walked without further discussion into the corner
taking up his customary position with his face inches from the wall and his
hands at his sides. He could hear Alexey
pacing in the sitting room and, as he realised the extent of his partner’s
agitation, he began to reconsider his decision, so lightly taken, to keep
silent about his leap into the
He thought back to a recent occasion when his thoughtless
behaviour had resulted in the loss of their old television set. He had been sick with worry over that. He had been so desperate to confess to Alexey
that he had had to contact him while he was on tour in
‘This time my thoughtless behaviour meant that I nearly lost my life. And I didn’t think I needed to tell my partner, my lover, my life’s companion. I convinced myself it didn’t affect us as a couple! Oh, Alesha, how could I do that to you?’ And, as the full implication of his wrongdoing made itself felt, tears rolled unheeded down his cheeks and dripped onto his tee shirt, leaving wet splashes down the front.
When Alexey finally called him into the living room, Mikhail turned and walked purposefully towards his top and, in a sudden impulsive gesture of penitence, fell to his knees at his feet. He placed his hands in Alexey’s lap and bowed his blonde head onto his clasped fingers, choking out his remorse, “I’m sorry Alesha. I’m so sorry. I didn’t think. I really didn’t want to worry you with another one of my stupid mistakes. I’ve only just now realised what a dreadful thing I’ve done.”
Alexey ran his hands through the thick blonde hair, “Shush, shush, Misha. It was a dreadful thing but you’re here with me now and you’re safe. And we’re going to sort this out. Come and sit beside me.”
Mikhail reluctantly allowed himself to be helped to his feet and then drawn down onto the settee to sit beside Alexey.
“I think I know precisely what happened now, unless there is anything else you need to tell me. So may I ask you, Misha, why you jumped into the river?”
Mikhail had to take a moment to consider the question which he
had not even asked of himself. Finally he replied, “I hardly know why. I just thought it would be a laugh. I wanted to surprise
“How many times, Misha, how many times have we discussed the importance of considering the consequences of your actions? This time the consequences were life threatening! What do I need to do to teach you to behave sensibly?”
Mikhail just hung his head in shame.
“And why didn’t you tell me what happened? Were you so afraid of me and what I might do?”
This time Mikhail was quick to respond.
“No, Alesha. I’m not afraid of you and I’m not afraid of the punishment.......Well I am a bit afraid of the punishment but that......that wasn’t why I didn’t tell you, really it wasn’t.”
“So why didn’t you tell me? This was probably the most dangerous thing that you have ever done and you kept it from me. That’s telling lies, Misha, lying by omission.”
“I didn’t want to worry you. I was alright. It was over and no harm done. I sort of convinced myself it wasn’t about ‘us’ so you didn’t need to know. I know that was wrong. I do know that now. I’m so sorry.”
“Misha, if I lost you, my life would be ruined.” Alexey drew a shuddering breath as he took a moment to reflect on the significance of what he had just said. “If you can’t see that risking your life affects our relationship then I don’t know how I can prove it to you.”
“You don’t have to prove it to me. You don’t. I won’t ever keep anything from you again. I just wasn’t thinking straight. Please, Alesha, please forgive me.”
“I’m so relieved that you’re safe, I forgave you as soon as I realised what you had done. Now I just have to consider a punishment that will convince you never to take such risks again. Is there anything else you wish to tell me or you wish to say first?”
Mikhail shook his head miserably.
“Well, you really deserve to be caned for risking your life so recklessly.”
Mikhail gritted his teeth but said nothing. He hated the cane with its wicked bite and searing burn but he understood that caning was a fitting punishment for what he had done. However, Alexey went straight on to qualify his initial judgment.
“But when I punish you this time I want to hold you, I want to feel you close to me; I want to convince you never to think of behaving like this again. So, for the first part of your punishment you’re going over my knee and you’re going to get the spanking of your life.”
Mikhail realised he had been holding his breath as he focused all his attention on Alexey’s final decision. Having heard the verdict, he let it go in one shuddering sigh and gulped a fresh lungful of air as he gathered his courage for the forthcoming ordeal.
“Remove your trousers and underwear, Mikhail,” came the firm instruction.
Alexey was clearly set on making this a punishment to remember. Mikhail struggled to obey, fumbling with his clothing as his hands shook with apprehension. When he was reduced to standing in his socks and a tee shirt which reached just below his waist, he felt ridiculously exposed and didn’t know where to put his hands. His embarrassment was short lived, however, as Alexey shifted back on the settee to make a firmer lap and summoned his brat to his side with one simple command.
“Bend over.”
Mikhail bent himself awkwardly over Alexey’s powerful thighs, shifting forward to get his torso onto the settee with his head resting on his arms. Alexey was not satisfied, however, until he had lifted Mikhail’s hips forward to align his bottom at the perfect angle for a spanking. Alexey then ran his hand gently over Mikhail’s trembling buttocks before lifting his arm to administer the first smack with a force which immediately overcame Mikhail’s resolution to take as much of his punishment as possible in silence. He yelped with dismay and tensed in expectation of worse to come.
Alexey spanked at a steady pace and with uniform ferocity. Sometimes he concentrated on one spot, forcing Mikhail to squirm in a fruitless attempt to present his backside at a different angle, and then he moved from one side to the other, ensuring that the whole of Mikhail’s bottom and upper thighs received even coverage. The intense sting took Mikhail’s breath away and soon he was gasping and yelling as Alexey’s strong arm and firm hand communicated exactly how he felt about Mikhail’s gamble with death.
Then Alexey concentrated for a while on the tender area at the crease between buttocks and thigh. As the pain became unbearable Mikhail lost the battle to keep his hands under control, flinging an arm back to protect his abused thighs. Alexey immediately halted the punishment, lifting a steadying hand from Mikhail’s back and leaning back slightly to allow his partner to move. Mikhail was expecting to feel strong fingers around his wrist drawing his arm back - these moves were as familiar to him as the steps of a dance - but Alexey did not take his usual role. Instead he remained immobile and through his pain it dawned on Mikhail that the initiative had been passed to him. This punishment was taking place with his full consent. If he withdrew his cooperation then Alexey was not going to continue and he was certainly not going to restrain his brat. It took all Mikhail’s remaining reserves of courage to pull his arm back and secure his hands under his head. With a whispered, “Sorry,” he moved his hips along Alexey’s thighs to get closer to him and made a conscious effort to relax his body ready for his punishment to resume.
Alexey saw with a rush of emotion that his partner had given him total submission. He took time to rub slow circles on his partner’s back until he felt Mikhail get his breathing under control. He then dealt out the final swats as hard as the first ones, moving round Mikhail’s bottom quickly to leave the whole area ablaze with the smart which eventually died down to a deep, dull ache.
Afterwards, lying in Alexey’s arms on the settee, Mikhail finally gave way to the tears he had not shed during his spanking. He was so quiet that only the spreading wetness on his shirt front alerted Alexey to Mikhail’s distress. Alexey buried his face in the blonde head nestled beneath his own and then slipped a hand under Mikhail’s chin, lifting the tear stained face to be kissed. There was no need for words; they huddled against each other to both give and receive comfort. Mikhail was still reeling with shocked incomprehension at his blindness to the hurt he had caused his partner. But he was profoundly sure that he was forgiven. Alexey was shaken to the core at the risk Mikhail had taken and was still trembling inwardly at the thought of what might have happened. He clung to his partner knowing that the warm, strong, breathing body in his arms was totally his own to love and cherish.
They spent the rest of the day relaxing in the apartment and gradually their pleasure in one another’s company and the conversations Alexey initiated on everyday household matters overcame any lingering feelings of shame on Mikhail’s part. By the evening his customary good humour had returned and he grimaced when Alexey raised the subject of the rest of his punishment.
“Oh, Alesha, please. I’m still sore from the spanking. You’ve given me a lesson I’ll never forget. No more, please, no more.”
“I told you that the spanking was only the first part of your punishment. You need something a bit longer lasting to drive the lesson home.”
Mikhail pouted but sat listening quietly and without further protest as Alexey delivered the remainder of his sentence. There were no further recriminations, just one simple and straightforward instruction.
“As you were so keen on an icy bath, you can take cold showers from now until I tell you otherwise. Go and get ready for bed.”
Mikhail grimaced but went without protest into the bathroom and undressed, turning to look at his burning backside which still glowed red against the winter whiteness of the rest of his body. He thought about the second part of his penalty and grinned as he realised that Alexey was taking no steps to enforce it. He leaned over to quietly lock the door. As long as he didn’t fill the bathroom with steam Alexey would be none the wiser about the temperature of his shower.
But as his hand closed on the hot tap, before he set the mix to lukewarm, Mikhail realised that he couldn’t deceive his partner. Their whole relationship was based on trusting one another. Mikhail was being punished for betraying that trust and yet Alexey was showing Mikhail once again that his trust was freely given. Having thought that through, he resolutely turned on the cold tap and stepped under the flow of water, gasping as the icy shower hit his shoulders. The cold water tanks for the entire building were located in the roof and at this time of year the water temperature wasn’t far off freezing point. He gritted his teeth and hammered his clenched fists against his thighs as he ducked his head under the icy flow, before turning off the tap as soon as his hair was wet.
He stood washing his hair and then soaping his entire body as he braced himself for the longer immersion that would be needed for a thorough rinse. Although his body was prepared for it this time, the shock of the cold water was just as intense. Mikhail found himself jumping about as the icy droplets stung like pinpricks on his skin. Only his sore bottom seemed to be deriving some benefit from the anaesthetising effect of the cold.
When Alexey took his turn in the bathroom, after Mikhail had called goodnight and climbed into bed, he too undressed whilst pondering a dilemma. He wasn’t sure he wanted to know the answer to his question. And he wasn’t sure what he would do if he got the answer he feared. Only when he was quite certain that he would take no action that night, whatever the outcome, did he climb onto the side of the bath and reach up to the hot water pipe which ran along the ceiling, linking the hot water tank to the shower head. He had done most of the restoration and redecoration in the apartment himself and he knew where all the plumbing was situated. If any hot water had been drawn off, the pipe to the hot water tank would still be warm. As his hand touched the old copper pipe his heart was warmed by confirmation of his brat’s obedience, just as his hand was chilled by contact with the cold metal.
When he climbed into bed Mikhail snuggled up to him.
“Aren’t you going to ask then?”
“Ask what?”
“Whether I took a cold shower.”
“I don’t need to ask that.”
“Why not.”
“Because I would always know if you had disobeyed me.”
Mikhail snorted and pushed his icy feet up against Alexey’s warm body, making him gasp with shock. But he did not pull away. He took hold of Mikhail’s toes and shifted his feet so that the soles were flat against his warm tummy and he could reach to massage heat back into Mikhail’s extremities.
“Better?” he enquired.
“Mmmm.”
“Then we had better see what other parts of you need warming up,” he whispered as he released Mikhail’s feet and slipped his hand down the front of Mikhail’s pyjamas.
Mikhail had been intending to plead for a relaxation to the cold shower rule but he soon lost all interest in pursuing the case as his pyjama bottoms were efficiently removed and Alexey’s questing mouth took over from his hand. Mikhail lay back on the pillows, closing his eyes and giving himself up to the pleasurable sensations which gradually began to overwhelm him. Much more of this, he thought, and I’ll soon be needing another cold shower, otherwise I’m going to........He started to pull away but Alexey grasped his hips and took his pulsing erection back in his mouth as Mikhail’s body convulsed with the intensity of his release.
Alexey’s pleasure came in watching his lover, cradled in his arms, fall quickly into a deep and untroubled sleep.
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